This is the Real.

Hello Everyone

It's been a quite a turbulent week and I am glad that I now have a chance to reflect on it all. I have experienced great pain, and sometimes I still struggle with the reality of the loss... A young girl I knew died of cancer on monday. I had just went to visit her the day before, and I saw the pain, saw the complete difference between who I knew, and what the cancer had done to her body (but not her spirit). I was already shook when I went to go see because although I have had quite a few people in my life die of cancer (including my grandfather, cousin and neighbor), I had never actually seen someone dying. I had never seen a YOUNG person dying.

I am thankful that she is no longer suffering, but the fact that she no longer exists (existence preceeds essence) was hard to accept. I do now (although I go through random bouts of sadness), and I find comfort in the fact she lives in my heart, and all beautiful songs. She was a singer, and one of the most talented ones I have ever known. She will live on in all my songs. The fragility of life, the percieved injustice of the Universe. They say there is always a reason, so I must believe that there is in order to accept this. My heart goes out to her family and close friends.

But moving beyond this tremendous loss, I have many questions, potential insights. Sometimes, we may question how real everything is. Is this "reality" just a figment of our horrible imaginations, or can such a violent, wonderous, perplexing place really exist?

It does.

It is so real, that sometimes it can be overwhelming, suffocating and immensly frightening. But this is it. The beautiful thing about this existence is that it is fluid. We have the power to make it into something that is unbearable: we take the lives of others, take our own lives or create painful memories for others. Or we can make it something so beautiful, so positive, exhilirating and fulfilling that when the end comes, there will be no sad eulogies of half lives and unrealized dreams.

We are here. This is now. This is the Real.


Peace.